Hello there guest and welcome to our forum!
To gain full access you must Register. Registration is free and it takes only a few moments to complete.
Already a member? Login here then!
thanks gents, ive been keeping to myself. just thinking a lot. i quit calling her a few days ago. its real hard but i dont feel anything. im just kind of numb, watching life and not living it. i do ride the r1 a lot, it keeps my mind vacant. then again i also go ripping up and down the 5 at like triple and quadruple the speed limit so thats not a very good alternative. it sucks cause i loved her a lot and never would have been unfaithful but i did some dumb **** man. i was talking to an ex while i was in iraq, knew it was wrong, thought it was harmless cause i had no intent behind it, now im going to get divorced. it sucks to know your wrong, know you would never do it again and be genuinely sorry and it not matter. i havent seen her face in days. im kind of a hard shell right now. im a zombie at work, a hermit at home and a maniac on my bike.lol. i cant cry anymore, i cant talk anymore, im just emotionally drained. i havent slept more than 4 hours in a night in 2 weeks, havent ate more than once a day in atleast 3. i feel like **** cause for one, i feel like this, but i fell like this cause of what i did. i keep forgetting when we split her whole life changed to, and taht wasnt her call, it was kind of mine. it sucks man. sitting in an empty house with nothing but guilt and remorse to keep you company. but i deserve it. i made my bed and now im laying in it. i know you guys are all there, but i gotta do this by myself. thanks though.
This site uses cookies to help personalise content, tailor your experience and to keep you logged in if you register.
By continuing to use this site, you are consenting to our use of cookies.